The Law of Attraction is real… Check out The Secret by Rhonda Byrne, but what happens when it doesn’t seem to be working? You’re not getting results? The results you have aren’t in the abundance you wish for? What happens when you see it work for one thing or someone else, but just can’t seem to get past that barrier to make it really work for you the way the success stories seem to be portrayed?
Well, I’ll tell you what I found out:
The back story of me finding the secret starts with Mony. In 2011 when I was on my last leg of wishing for Mony, wondering, wanting the only woman I ever loved with my entire being…was when I just put it out there… (not knowing the anything about the Secret yet), I put it out there with every fiber of my being, every emotion, every feeling I could ever have… I WANTED TO FIND HER AGAIN!!!! FINALLY!!!! You can read the back story here.
When I started my divorce years ago, I vowed with every fiber of my being that I was going to keep my children no matter what the cost, I’d give it all up to keep them and nothing was going to stop me. I won custody of my children… it cost me everything.
But these aren’t the only proofs the law of attraction was hard at work in my life.
Prior to divorce and Mony, I started my career in finance from the very bottom rung of not only the corporate ladder but social ladder… I was a thug at best when I was 23, a loan sharking hustler… I wanted more and I got more when someone recognized my potential and for more than 14 years I was unstoppable, I was going to make more and more even if it killed me because that’s what I wanted most… and I did. Funny thing is, that all came crashing down when I told the universe that I would win my kids at all costs and I no longer cared about my career.
But still I didn’t know anything about the law of attraction until February of 2012… I didn’t know the law of attraction was at work until Mony showed me the movie based on the Rhonda Byrne book “the Secret”.
And since then I have been retraining myself to think, appreciate, love and put forth what I want to the universe… and I’ve seen results but nothing like what transpired in my life prior to finding Mony. What the fuck was wrong? Why didn’t it work? Why isn’t it working for me? It did when I knew nothing of it and it worked well… what was stopping it from being a success story worthy of a movie? Why was it working part time?
It was not that I didn’t believe, that I didn’t want, it wasn’t sowing the seeds of doubt right before the seedling of desire broke the surface. No, it wasn’t a lack of any of the things that one might think it would be. It wasn’t one shred of self doubt, it wasn’t the lack of ego or esteem needed to believe you deserve only the best, and it wasn’t just settling for what I got if it wasn’t exactly what I wanted. No, it was hardly all those things the teachers of the law of attraction tell you not to do.
I didn’t want it bad enough.
You might say, “Oh, E. that’s such bullshit, I want it so bad I crap gold doubloons in my dreams”. And I say… how bad did you want your spouse? How bad did you want that degree? How bad did you want to go to Europe, get that house, get that apartment, get that job raise or promotion, start that business, get that car, that phone, that stupid tie your mother thinks is ugly! How bad… no… How FUCKING bad did you really WANT IT?!!! Not just want but want it BAD ENOUGH!!!
You might believe that you need it, you might know you desire it, you finally got to a place where you know you deserve it… but if you are still having trouble seeing the law of attraction work of you… ask yourself how bad you WANT it.
The other day I realized why it seems like the law of attraction runs hot and cold, when I heard Mony griping about all those things; “I need it”… “I deserve it”… “I desire it”. Truth is, like me, she does believe she deserves it, she does desire it, she feels she needs it…and as I thought about it… I remembered how when I learned about the law of attraction I learned it was always in my life.
Looking at her gripes and looking at my own why’s… It hits me… she doesn’t… I haven’t…WANTED IT ENOUGH.
I wanted to climb to the top of my career so bad that I’d sacrifice, step on, work hard, take risks and demand that I deserved it and the law of attraction gave it to me… just like I WANTED so hard to win my children in a divorce at ALL COSTS…. and finding Mony again, because I’d got fed up of wanting and wondering with no resolve… I WANTED it so bad that I felt it in every atom of my body… I felt it in every atom of my body every time I wanted something so bad.
You have to want it so bad that you literally crap the dream, you literally dream the dream, when you’re eating you’re spooning it in your mouth… remember when you wanted that new toy as a little kid? Remember you would kick and scream or cry or beg or badger until you got it… no matter how you got it, didn’t matter… you wanted it so bad when you were so little that you didn’t give a shit… all you knew is you wanted it.
How bad did you want that job, that person, that ring, that phone… how BAD?
How bad do you really want it? Ask yourself…if you don’t feel it in your toes… you don’t want it bad enough.